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Shiny objects distract me

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Posted: Mon Mar 17, 2008 11:23 pm

So I went out and bought a pack of smokes!!! YES I fucked up!!!
I was talking to my friend on the phone and he isnt doing so good, so I got stressed...the treadmill didnt work, the tea didnt work and the deep breathing didnt work. I bought a deck of smokes

I had a smoke, got really dizzy and puked...guess im not supposed to smoke..im pissed at myself. I have been doing so good since December 23...WTF?
I just dont get why i would do that...I threw the deck away, but I still had one!!!

GRRRRRR...I hate when i fail, I am the poorest loser in the world and get really hard on myself. I know I shouldnt have even bought them, even when I was buying them!!! But I went and did it anyway...what a loser :evil:

Oh well...I guess i have to figure out how to learn from it and find alternate methods of dealing with adverse stress...I already use exercise fanatically, and my diet is better than most athletes...so i am at a loss on what to do

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...yep that sums it up

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twister

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Posted: Tue Mar 18, 2008 10:14 am

Get a Go light.. put in on your desk in your peripheral vision for about 20 minutes a day and you'll feel better in about a week Get your proper sleep... Get out in any sunshine if you can .. if your stressed just being outside or out in any sunlight can help. Sounds like your suffering from SADS. (Seasonal disorder)

Start taking vitamin B complex vitamins they help offset stress.

Hey don't worry about one cigerette.. you didn't smoke the whole pack.. It was the rush back of nicotene into your system that made you sick...

In lifes path you may stumble the important thing is getting up and carrying on and not laying there distressed that you fell.

The extra light, Vitamins staying away from smoking and realize that in this big wonderful world.. No one is judging you.. as a person a mother as a non smoker.. everything will be okay.. Keep your head up we all care about you.

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Posted: Tue Mar 18, 2008 10:28 am

Don't feel bad Tatt. At least you discovered your mistake and corrected it. That is a positive and courageous move in its self. A stumble is not a loss or weekness. It is just part of the journey along the sometimes rocky path. Now do yourself a favor and GET RID OF 'EM! You don't need the lingering temptation.

One of my favorite quotes is from Vince Lombardi. "The quality of a man [or person] is not measured by how many times he falls down, but how many times he picks himself up."

TattoodGirl

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Posted: Tue Mar 18, 2008 10:43 am

Thank you both for the kind words and advice....smokes are gone...I threw them out immediately. I just need to stop before i do...thats what it comes down to.

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...yep that sums it up

lily

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Posted: Tue Mar 18, 2008 7:02 pm

I odn't see a problem here, TG. You had one, puked, and now have an even stronger resolve not to do it again.

You're not a loser, BTW - you're a quitter.