To truly feel and understand hatred.




The LORD Is My Shepherd
A Psalm of David.

The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,I will fear no evil: for thou art with me thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil;
my cup runneth over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.






See people think that hatred is someone saying racists, bigoted, sexist, etc words, and or maybe following through with actions and for the most part it is. However that overt hatred, it's easy to spot and most times you can fight it and challenge it if it comes knocking at your door, but what about the covert kind, the kind that is not that subtle, the kind that is not that easy to spot, how do you recognize that kind, and how do you stop that kind, and how do you deal with it, when it might not even identify itself as such, when in fact it might identify itself as the good guy?

Well I had some fun with that recently. I got to be amongst the informant force, the joke that my life has become, wash rinse repeat, they never change. Now before I go off on a very generalized rant, I want to say that not everyone is stupid, not everyone is hateful, and there are some, that are not going along with the sheeple feed, that are not going along with hatred, for no real reason. For people like this I am grateful and your thoughts, desires give me hope, keep sending out those intentions, because the world needs them.

My insides are on burnt a bit right this minute, I am not sure what they were using this time around, but when I work up, you could feel the pulsing waves, coming from below, but also a lot of heat, what was weird is that there was a book near me and when I woke up, and felt the book, it felt hot. Usually the stuff they use, only heats up my physical being, but whatever they used now is different, designed to cause a different kind of harm. There level for inhumanity never ceases to amaze me. It's expected, and I am not as troubled by it, they just have limited humanity to speak of. Stupid creatures that can be commanded at will, to do the bidding of others, no matter how evil or degenerate those actions, are, and when asked why it will be the same old excuse, I was just following orders.

Anyways, for people who are not ignorantly willing to hate and believe stupid lies, my thanks. For those who will embrace being corrected when they see the truth, my thanks also. For those who will venomously hate, and seek to destroy that which you know not or understand, those who would violently attack others with your thoughts, intentions and actions, I have no place in my world for you, and my desires for you are not well, my hopes for you are not well. You make the world unsafe for me and those like me. You bring no good energy, and Karmically I pray for balance to find you.

It's funny being online I can go to many different corners of the net, and I can enter many different mind sets, ideals, beliefs, attitudes, worlds. I can find out what is behind them like never before. This access was not readily available 20 years ago, but the Internet has changed all this. I can examine the ideals of anyone from goths, extremists, feminists, hippies, the drug culture, AIDS activists, etc, etc, etc. I have a world open to me, where I can learn about the struggles of others, I can understand Opposing viewpoints. Instead of wallowing in ignorance about why people think and feel the way they do, I can go out and find out the reasons, ask the questions and find the answers. I like learning, I like understanding, it bridges the gap, and has the potential to help and heal. I would not ever have had this access, to research to understand, to help, to change for the better. For some odd reason people choose not to understand this, some would assign nefarious intentions towards my endeavours, primarily because their hearts are evil, and their minds are shallow and limited. The way they think, function, understand is so limited, that those are the only conclusions they can come to, because it matches their limited views of what they know about the world, which is not much.

I have dealt with the informant force for more years of my life than I care to recollect. When I say the informant force, I specifically refer to those who participated in my years of harassment, and hatred via workplace mobbing, street harassment, rumours, slanders, lies, ill intentions, etc. If you are not in these categories then you have no need to take offense. They are hateful, they are hate filled. They like to destroy, these are the sorts that drive people to commit suicide, they destroy families, and innocents, they have probably taken more lives over the years via their brand of hatred, then many in our society who we openly identify, call, or classify as hateful. I condemn those actions and find it to be unacceptable, but for many others this kind of hate is acceptable, the blood never touches their hand, and if it does it's spread so thin, they hardly notice.

I was once again presently surprised to find their hatred and venom, pointed in my direction, oh there is a surprise, what else is new, what else are they good for? This time much like the others times they were wrong, but it makes no difference, as usually, when has truth ever mattered to these people? When has being wrong ever stopped these useful idiots from carrying out harm against others?

Their capacity to hate astounds me. Most of these people that I see on the street, they don't know me, even the ones I worked with, they don't me, except for what I reveal about myself, or some third party tells them, but how many times has that been taken and used as the truth? These people like to hate, it's point, click, and hate to these people, just tell them where, and who, no other form of critical thinking is needed. It doesn't matter if it's true, logical, correct, or accurate. My entire life, these are the hateful things that I was taught to fight against, but I am finding the hate where I least expected it, from the very people who should know better but don't. There vibrational levels are so low, when I am around them. Now that mine are coming back online, I can understand a lot better the true challenges inherent, with trying to wake people up, and get them to see the truth. Via the snitching friends network, these people are in touch with each other, they know or I should say, they think they know all about you, I had someone threaten me via a skit, oh not just me, but my family. You psychotic fu**ing idiots. Now tell me who the hateful ones are?

I will thankfully never understand these people if I live to be a thousand, and considering I now fully believe that we come here, and then we continue on after we leave here, and then are reborn once more, that says a lot. t. They are the same now as they have always been, and they do not change. All that changes are the physical forms they take. But the mentality, the capacity to hate, does not change or diminish. I am hoping the world can wake up and see that we are about to repeat history in an unprecedented manner, but I am less hopeful. Along with the changes that are happening in our society, the other dangers that I am trying to wake people up to is themselves, and their inherent capacity for evil, and their inability to see it when it's about to rear it's ugly head again in fake righteous indignation, and destroy and seek the blood of those it deems worthy. In plain English these people like to hate, they like to believe that they are on the side of good, they will believe and swallow anything that they are told. They don't learn, they don't change, and so history will likely repeat. That is a frightening prospect, but if they can not be awakened, then this path will not change. How can you awaken minds that are choosing to be hateful, to not understand, to hate where they are pointed, without reason, without justification, without consciousness? I don't even know the answer to that question, but history tells me that you can't, and from what I have seen those who would attempt to try have consistently been met with their venom. Crucified, sacrificed, etc.

The physical appearances are different this time around, but the roles being played out are the same. The baiting of people, the lies, the rumours, the slander, it's all the same. The very real possibility that we are about to repeat is very high. You have an informant force, that is connected like no other time in history. Yet the ignorance is just as great, if not worst. I begin to believe that there must of been those in other times who saw the capacity early on, and who also tried to make others aware, I imagine that they were also ignored by the masses.

The human mindset when it seeks to hate and destroy goes out in one big wave, and it's constantly repeating.
Witch trials, Inquisitions, Nazi Germany, The Stasi, McCarthyism, to a lesser degree, but it's the same capacity, and the same desire, this need to feed and they pick a target, and begin to seek out and try to find ways to devour it's flesh, human sacrifice is what these people know and understand, then and now.

My time spent learning has been interesting. The methods also do not change that much, the methods used for destroying a target, making them appear to be less then human, making them into objects, things that can be destroyed. People are so willing to walk a mile for the destruction of the innocent, everyone loves a good sacrifice, but they would hardly take one step to save each others. They feel justified and righteous, but what I saw reflected was people who would delight, find glee, seek and desire the destruction of others. No remorse or repentance. What I saw in them, is reflected back here, and like a mirror, they will not like what they see or read, but at least this will be the truth. People's ignorance, is one of the most inherent dangers the human species faces.

These people also do not welcome truth in anytime period either.

Moving on with the things that leave me hopeful. I have talked about the bad stuff, and now I will move on to the good stuff. In trying to find ways to awaken people, so that they will not take this path again, I have observed many communities across the net. I am constantly trying to find out if awareness is spreading, is understanding of this time being gained, or do people remain as blissfully ignorant as I was about the time that we are in? What I have observed is interesting. The government shrills are hard at work, I see them in many ways pushing an agenda, posting this idea hear, this thought here, trying to influence how people think, and trying to lead the discussions in this or that direction on some of these forums. Walking down a path that might lead to truth. They are hard at work and doing a good job. Websites that I expect to be helping to wake people up surprisingly are not. I have watched one site, go from extremely aware members, to either mostly shrills, or they are attracting really dumbed down people, and that is always dangerous. As the New York plot has shown us, when people are not very smart, they can be manipulated and used.

Others sites I have been surprised, one website where I was expecting to find hate, I have found something else. Sure you have people with hateful attitudes, ideals, separate from my own, that was expected, but then you also have people that have very aware attitudes. Yet within the spectrum, you have people who see the time period for what it is, the capacity for history to repeat, but on a different scale. Who understand the police state and the formation that is happening. You get a lot of what was expected and anticipated, but on an unexpected note, you also have voices that see the time unfolding and dear I say it, are trying to alert others around them. This is not what I expected to come across in those neck of the woods, but an awareness capacity is there. I have been looking for hope, for a sign that we can stop this time period from happening again, and I find it in the most surprising and unexpected places. When you delve past the expected and overt, there is the unexpected and aware.

It's almost like the people who think that they are not hateful, and who are think they are creating a better world are the ones who are helping to destroy others. They don't see that their actions are covertly hateful. Where the other group, they understand that they are not favored in society, they understand that in many circles they are hated, and not respected, but yet they some also have an understanding of the time that is coming. That light and awareness was not what I expected to find, but I did.

Is my thinking warped, am I off my rocker, no? There is more to this battle than flesh and blood. There is a spiritual side, with vibrations, and human consciousness, things that can't be explained at the outset, but go a long way towards making a difference in the human outcome. I don't expect most people to try to understand this aspect, they are happy with what they can see on the surface and I will leave it at that. Jesus for his time was criticised for being a friend to sinners and publicans, so I think I am in good hands.


There is so much negative energy being generated within the informant force, the same kind that contributed to things like the witch trials, and Inquisitions, Nazi Germany, Stasi Germany, McCarthyism. Those people in those times, felt righteous in their actions, they used the same flawed logic, the same rumour mongering and they also destroyed their innocent victims much in the same way that this society does. Where the witch trials burnt people at the stake, this society just eats away at a person till they are destroyed in a different manner. Less blood on the hands, but it the same results, and the blood is sacrificed once more.

If nothing else in this world I want to take the time to understand those things which I can. Most of my life I wondered how, how could Hitlers Germany have happened, how could people have gone along with it? Why did they not see the true evil of their actions? The books could not teach me, only the human experience could teach me, and I am once more made whole, and connected. Life is consciousness, awareness, it's so much more than the flesh and blood we see, but most of our lives are lived thinking that there is little else.

The world has not ceased to amaze me. Where I once thought I would find understanding, and awareness, I have found stupidity, ignorance, and intolerance. I have found covertly hateful actions that are unfathomable, but that I encounter on a daily basis. (Again this is not a blanket statement, within the informant force, I find people who give me hope, and who make me remember why I want to help.) Where traditionally I would expected to find nothing but hate, I have found that, but I have also been pleasantly surprised to find awareness, intelligence in some regards, and a bit of hope that this can still be stopped, that this path may not be walked once more.

What I do know is that is an intelligence in the universe, a consciousness, a will a capacity, and when we can tune into that, when we are not prevented, we begin to see and understand the world in many different capacities. Life is about experience, learning, feeling? As humans we have an incredible capacity for good, but we also have an amazing capacity for evil, and for destroying each other and for doing unspeakable, unfathomable things to each other, then walking away and covering them up, as if nothing happened. Humans are funny that way, but to try to understand them, is interesting.

What I do know, if we had a greater threat than ourselves, eg. project Blue Beam, alien attack, etc, we would learn to work together. We would learn to look past our differences, and see each other as one race, one people, maybe not everyone, but most people, it would be us against them. Humans are never as cooperative, as when there is a war or threat involved, a fight. So you get wars on drugs, and terror. They are very effective when pointed towards a common enemy, a common goal, a greater good, even if it's based on a lie. That's why there are always divisions, as long as they have someone to hate, or to focus their differences on, they have this amazing capacity to work together. War makes strange bed fellows. Uniting rich and poor, black and white, men and women, different politics and religions, different classes, because then people for a time forget about the minor differences, realise that we are all one, and focus on the greater enemy, and those are the times, human corporation it seems can be achieved. Don't think that those who would enslave humanity are not aware of this little flawed logic in our history.

At present the vibrational energy, the normal stuff that David Icke and other like him talk about is at a low point. If we can bring that back up, then we might stand a chance. One thing that I understand about Gang Stalking is that it is designed to bring this energy down to it's lowest common denominator. Those around the target in a sense feed off of this. Anyways, I am going to continue to do what I came here to do, for as long as I can. I will remain prayerful and hopeful, because it's the only thing that I know for sure that works, it might take time, but if you are consistent it can work. I will pray for light where there is darkness, light/love where there is hate, and understanding where there is ignorance. If this time does come once more, than at least I know I have done my best. I did try.