To truly feel and understand hatred.




The LORD Is My Shepherd
A Psalm of David.

The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,I will fear no evil: for thou art with me thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil;
my cup runneth over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.






See people think that hatred is someone saying racists, bigoted, sexist, etc words, and or maybe following through with actions and for the most part it is. However that overt hatred, it's easy to spot and most times you can fight it and challenge it if it comes knocking at your door, but what about the covert kind, the kind that is not that subtle, the kind that is not that easy to spot, how do you recognize that kind, and how do you stop that kind, and how do you deal with it, when it might not even identify itself as such, when in fact it might identify itself as the good guy?

Well I had some fun with that recently. I got to be amongst the informant force, the joke that my life has become, wash rinse repeat, they never change. Now before I go off on a very generalized rant, I want to say that not everyone is stupid, not everyone is hateful, and there are some, that are not going along with the sheeple feed, that are not going along with hatred, for no real reason. For people like this I am grateful and your thoughts, desires give me hope, keep sending out those intentions, because the world needs them.

My insides are on burnt a bit right this minute, I am not sure what they were using this time around,...

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Open Secret. That's what Gang Stalking is. Many know about what is going on, and many are simply willing to keep the secret. Don't get me wrong there are people in society who have no idea that the society is like this, but for others it's a big open secret.

I learnt a lot about open secrets. Sometimes you keep them to protect yourself, mostly you might keep it to protect others, or in some cases to protect an organization or even a society. Other times the secret might be kept because the society, or organization is in denial.

It made me think about why people keep secrets, sometimes it's to protect another, they worry about the consequences should the secret come out. Others because it might affect the system that supports them. Sometimes it's to protect themselves, because they kept the secret too long, or they fear the consequences.

I thought about the priest that were doing these deeds to children. Many of these men were prominent, people trusted them, they liked them, looked to them for moral guidance, for a sense of community, for a sense of what made them who they are. To find out what you believed to be true as really false has to be a shock. Denial is a stage that people also go through, to deal with the shock but then also to protect themselves from the truth. They often might not want to hurt the perpetrator, they realise that exposing the perpetrator might bring down their cause, society etc. Like those preachers who had affairs on their wives, when you get caught doing the opposite of what you preach it can be a hard thing.

The actions of others have the capacity to shake foundations, and I think that is in part what is at the heart of the reason many keep quite about things like this in society. They don't want to rock the boat. They don't know who to turn to, or who to trust.

So the secret remains, in the open where you can see it, but silence where it's not openly discussed, maybe whispered about, hinted at, but never fully brought to light....

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I read a post by a person today who is having trouble adjusting to change. I really felt for this person, they really felt that the world was changing and that there was nothing left, it was heartbreaking to read the post, because I believe the person genuinely felt this way.

Change can be hard, it can be life changing, but it can be what we make it. The person wanted to know where the hero was, who was coming to save the day. What I have learnt from my Gang Stalking experience is that when there is no hero, you become the hero, you can't control everything, God I wish we could, but you take control of what you can, and you encourage others to do the same.

The first and normal reaction to change is to hate it with a passion, to want to fight against it, to rail against it, to cry out and to mourn for what was. That is a natural and very human reaction to have, but once we have that reaction we can and must start to make what we can of our new circumstances. I can be very hard, it can almost be heartbreaking.

My life was really good, I live a boring but on track life. I had played life carefully, I had kept good credit and had a great relationship with my cc company. Platinum card while still very young, good jobs, etc. All the stupid material things they teach you to work and strive for. Then this crazy Gang Stalking stuff happened and my life changed. My expectations have not changed, but I had to adapt, I am still adapting. The things that so easily should have been, currently are not. Life is not the way that I want it to be, but I can't afford to give up. I can't let it get me down and I can't afford to grow hateful, resentful, or give up on the life that I still have. I can't afford to let it make me stop living.

Change for many others can happen in other ways, the death of a loved one, divorce, moving, changes in society, change in what's happening with the country, etc. Change can make you feel scared, depressed, and many don't know what to do about it,...

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Why we must continue to document our harassment.

See I get bored day in day out writing down everything that has happened and I forget that by documenting my experiences of torture, the day in day out harassment's it's the only way other targets and in fact the world will begin to understand what we are doing through. I get tired of it, because how many times can I write that the I have blisters on the back of my head and face because they are electronically torturing me, and it's making my skin blister and it's burning me? It's become such a daily and common event for me, that I don't even write about it anymore, but that's not correct, because how are others ever to understand what we are going through if we don't let them know?

I also think that because I have not been sharing what was happening, it's caused me to be a bit more hateful, because I am keeping it in and not letting it out, so I am going to work on that. Before this started happening, I have always been a very private person and had things gone according to plan it would have continued that way, but things don't always go according to plan.

Last week I had the building worker enter my apartment while I was home. He claimed he thought it was an emergency, but he has done this one other time before. The first time I just left it alone and pretty much just gave him unpleasant stares whenever I saw him. This time however I wrote him up. If I as a target keep letting them get away with stuff, they will think it's ok to keep doing it. You have to snap them back to a sense of reality, and the reality is, this is not ok. I also blame myself however, because for most of the year I had just been giving him unpleasant stares due to the first incident which I mostly let go, but on a personal level I just let him know it was not ok, and then recently I decided to be civil, that was a mistake. Well the moment I decided to be civil, the building worker used that to do the bidding of his informant buddies and enter...

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http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldne ... -rape.html




This article is very important. The reason it's important is in part because it shows what happened in Abu Ghraid and in part confirms what many of already knew about the allegations of rape. There have been allegations of rape for men, women, and children. Some sites a few years back showed video of rapes, though some videos may have been false, many others are believed to have been real. This has been a disgusting and disgraceful time in American history and it's a time I am sure many would like to forget and sweep under the rug, but if you do that, doesn't that make you just as monstrous as Germany when they tried to cover up a lot of the Atrocities after WWII? They lied about a lot of what had happened and tried to cover it up.

I watched Obama stand before a group of Congress and declare that America does not torture.

http://www.alertnet.org/thenews/newsdesk/N24444553.htm



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8r23oHpgMJg ...

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