Letting the hate all hang out.

I have been doing little things to fight back recently. The informants are still trying to mess with every aspect of my life, I find them disgraceful, I find the society disgraceful, because it allows such.

I have a client who is long over due paying some funds, but refuses to as instructed by the informant force. I have rallied back with revoking business services till payment is rendered. Now the informant force are doing everything they can to try to get me to bend on this matter. They seem to think that if they just keep messing with my life I will suddenly bend, and see things their way. Keep trying away, it just makes me more determined, I hate to watch such people triumph over others. Their actions remind me of specific cases that I have heard where they (the controlled courts) give a child to a known pedophile because the pedophile is one of theirs and the other parent was not cooperating with them, or refused to put up with abuse anymore. I have heard cases such as this, they truly are vermin and this system truly is corrupt. It's disgusting, but this system does not care about morals, it cares only about compliance and ownership of people.

Anyways I have been doing little things lately like filing complaints about every thing that they do, the same way they give us no room, we must do the same thing back to them into a corner the same way they would us. I don't mean for targets to become hate filled people, but to sit back and watch injustice day after day is a little too much for the human soul.

Yesterday I let some of that hate hang out. I have been trying to not be a hate filled person. I have been trying to do the right thing, to remember to rise above the hate, but they really deserve what they get. I can't feel sorry for them, because I realise that this is ongoing because so many people are complacent with it. Just like the abuse of children and those societies that kept it secret, and I am disgusted. Just because this system has always been like this does not mean that it should continue to be like this, and just because the silence you now keep is similar to the silence people kept about the mafia at one point, not talking about it, or denying it's existence, does not mean it has to always be like this. I realise that people have the ability to change this if they want to, but currently they are not choosing to, and that just makes me angry.

I am a pretty nice person, but how long day in day out can you watch injustice before you become truly disgusted and truly hateful? I really try to remember not to become hateful, because that's another trap that I absolutely don't want to fall into.

So yesterday I let the hate all hang out. I wrote down everything that I was feeling about the informants and how I hoped they would pay for all the horrors they have caused. I hoped and I wished that the worst things would happen to them. I know that's just so opposite to what Christianity teaches, but I am human and they really are making themselves worthy of my despise. I wrote for like 15 minutes straight, and it felt good. I just let the hate all hang out, and it was like an enema for my soul, it just released all the bad negative, hateful things that I had been hanging on to, trying to not let myself surrender to. I let it all out and it's not mine anymore. (Well it's a work in progress. One just logged onto my computer and I just let them have it. I really do think that they are vermin, and I really don't like them, but I have to rise about it.)

I woke up this morning and I felt so much better. Yesterday I followed up my release with catching up on some of the websites, and contacting some lawyers. (Whenever I start emailing lawyers oddly enough my emails stop working, or I don't hear back.) I believe that since the ACLU has acknowledge that investigations are happening on innocent citizens, and they can go on for some time, with no one taking responsibility that targets have a better chance of using this to get legal help. See they don't like it when we get legal help, or start to try to take legal action, so I believe this is the way to go. They also do whatever they want till you smack them back. Everytime they have gotten out of line, and I have taken direct action, they have fallen back. So be it reporting them repeatedly for things I can report them for, or documenting any noise, better to record, document, then report, it's stopped. See if there is any chance that they will be caught or discovered they fall back. They are like those people who wear masks to commit their evil deeds and if they are unmasked or if there is the chance that they will be unmasked they don't like that, so you have to use what you can against them.

These people are so funny, they would be the first to pretend that they are doing something for the betterment of society, but they are the most hateful people. They say hi in the hallways, but make sure to record every move you make, and they work with those who would try to come into our homes and poison our food, or do other destructive things. (I will never forget the story of the women who found that they had messed with her child's diabetic medication.) See people are quick to target people who say things out loud. It's popular to target extremist sites or what they call hate sites, but over the last three years, I have not met anything so hateful as these people. They pull their hate crap on the down low. They pretend to be good citizens, they pretend that we have some kind of normal society, that it's not some twisted freakish mess, that harbors a creepy secret. They pretend that they are decent, but if you look at what they allow to happen to Targeted Individuals at every level of society, they are the truly hateful ones, they are just good at masking it.

I have made some peace with the fact that the world has been like this for some time, I am clear on this fact, and I don't dwell on it. This has been going on for generations, this is not new, only my awareness of it. However I refuse to be accepting of people and their complacency. I will not accept that anymore than I accept people who are complacent with letting little kids get hurt and harmed. Society is like this, because it's been allowed to be like this. Sure many would like to do something to change this, but many others are so comfortable with the way things are. They protect the system and that is why this remains. It's not because they don't know, it's because they are all too aware, and they know what can happen if they try to interfere with the system. Also many don't want to interfere, they like it, it gives vermin power they would not have in any decent functioning society.

People think it's wrong to say hateful things, and they are quick to target so called extremist sites, but I like my extremism where I can see it. I think sometimes having a place or being able to let it all hang out can be a good thing. I think in fact if we did not have places where people could let it all hang out, we might have bigger problems in society. I know for me, getting it all out helped, I feel cleansed. I think in some ways when you try to suppress people, or they feel that they can't say what they wish you potentially create more problems than you solve. I am not saying let free flowing hate go unchecked, but I am starting to realise that sometimes being open where we can see and be negative just might solve a lot more problems than they create in society.
For me there is nothing more hateful and creepy right now, than the good citizens of the society who are in league with evil. They go along willingly in some cases unwilling in others with what is happening to thousands of people. It's so gross. They pretend to be good, to have some kind of morals, but it's a joke. Because they know what's happening and they go along with it to protect themselves and this system. They smile pretend to be good, but work in conjunction for evil. I finally just got disgusted, because it is hypocritical.

We lie and we pretend that our society is not doing what others have done in the past, and it's not acceptable. We like to bury our heads in the sad, enacting draconian laws about what people can say, and think, but then on an underlying hidden level, we commit all this true evil, and just because it's not open we then get to think and pretend that we are good, but we are not.

This targeting has given me some real perspective. Right now I am prayerful again. I don't want to let hate become who I am, I have come too far, but it's good to recognise this aspect, and that's why I have to focus on finding ways to overcoming such a hateful and destructive system.

I am saddened by much of what I have seen, by much of what I now understand about society and how it really functions. Yet I also know that we must retain hope. Change can happen but not if people are in denial or happy with the way that things are. Change will only happen if people understand and acknowledge that there is a problem. Till then the usual suspects will just continue to be sacrificed to the system, and much of society will go about their business with a pretend blind eye, hoping that their turn never comes.