kitty's claws

It’s December 10th and only two weeks to Christmas and i feel like i am the only person not in the Christmas spirit. Our family has been through a lot this year and most people would understand that Christmas will just not be the same but it’s more than that. Christmas does not have to be the same to be wonderful.

i am going through the motions like a Christmas robot.
Bake Christmas cookies...............check
Send out Christmas cards.............check
Attend holiday parties..................check
Put up Christmas lights................check
Go to church.................................check
Light the Advent candles..............check
Buy presents..................................credit card
Put up the Christmas tree...............check
and every other thing that makes Christmas... Christmas .........check

i feel foolish because i am doing all these things to fulfill others expectations about Christmas and all i want is ..... to know what i want. i wish it was as easy as saying i want new shoes for Christmas. But what i want is not for sale at Sherway Gardens.

i want a Christmas miracle.....
i want my family back.
i want to feel the joy of being together again without expectations and worry.

i miss you and all the simple things we loved