Wolf Within

Ask me to help a child who's been seperated or removed from their home, I can do that.
Ask me to "create" a new program for those who are housebound - not a problem.
Ask me to take in an abused mom and her kids, I'd gladly do it and help get that mom back on track - and relocated.
Ask me to help folks with Dimentia stay focused, I can do.
Ask me to thin out the critter population on the streets, I'm there!
Ask me to be frivulous - that's my middle name!
Ask me to "create" something for a community event, that stimulates my creativity and gets me involved - BUT
Ask me to read and comprehend Tax Guides to complete the taxes, you can forget it - I record everything, do a sum calculation with the adding machine paper roll and attatch it to each monthly end - I'm fine with that - yet, I am neither agile or educated in the business end of it and the jibber jabber of tax guides, is just not my talent!

If I could do everything, I wouldn't need anybody.

Our group needs to move forward, we need to expand with our long awaited programs that were working - that were in function, that were making progress, however, because we aren't from around here and even though we are going on 7 yrs here, we've been called "nosy parkers, meddling in affairs of others and the artwork that's been done is compared to "the same problem New York has with street punk Graffitti" - the arrogance and ignorance has been appauling and so cruelly destructive - what a waste of life.

Some say - move. Some say - you need to get out of there.
Some say - you must like abuse. Some call me foolish.
Dear God, where does it end?

How does a community "back" the destruction and waste of another person's life, let alone something so good, something that benefits seniors, the handicapped and children? Something that's been financially invested into by everyone else - but them!
How does a community endorse the vandalism, the undue suffering, the imposed financial losses that have been done to my family and I?
HOW!!!!!?
Ask the County if I excist, they'll say "no"
Read their biz website and there are my words from the village herald "located in between 2 cities, with available train transportation for business transport"
Do I excist? YES!

We need to relocate in "a county of 6,000 people, covering 2,400 sq miles (quoted from their website - (pl don't ask what that is in kms....) in a county where I am the first to come forward as an Animal Shelter - BUT not just an animal shelter, one that utilizes the animals to benefit people, programs, a business plan, a personal effort and daily time spent, volunteers, offering social solutions to their "unwanted" and MORE.

I need my Volunteers BACK! I need them to feel good about coming and not friggin AFRAID!!! I need the kids back, I need the programs back up and running, this is so absolutely ridiculous! And they claim to be the richest county in s. alberta, yet it is s-o-o-o repressed, with such a lack of sustainable income and they proudly promote "agricultural community" - that's fine and dandy - however, if they are so damned "elite" then Lay Off Tax Payers Money and Support Yourselves!!!!
Controling, manipulating and hurtful people! Powerful? No!
And to have some backing, none of this would be happening!

A shelter owner in another county came out to visit me (check on me) and wrote me a letter of recommendation, in that letter, she states that I need to set examples - not retaliate - easy for her to say.
For 4 years, I set examples and in that 4 years, my life savings were spent on 16 cars, 28 flat tires, 2 homes I "was" purchasing but they managed to screw me out of those too, purposely injured animals and more malice than you can shake a stick at... funny, those weren't the examples I set, yet is the examples endorsed by a good 40-50 people -
Otherwords, strength in numbers, cowards, who can't see past their noses and PREFER to make this into what they perceive........

If this is what my Tax $$$ support, then I prefer to never make another dime!
Am I being malice? Am I being like a lose cannon? OR am I someone who has been pushed to the max and finally started fighting back?!!
Do I have reason to be upset?
YES, I came here with my life savings, into a community that held major potential, yet was not advancing - gee I wonder why!

I obtained a village licence to have a store in my garage. I had leftover stock from my store and the market, I encouraged kids to lend a hand for things they wanted to buy but had no money... I put out signs on the side of the highway and encouraged traffic into the businesses in the village (these signs were run over or stolen), I offered residents spots in the "store" to sell their hand made and well made goods - no commissions, just work it for a few hours a week - that wasn't good enough
By opening the store, we invited folks to come meet us, to hinder gossip and misunderstandings, not good enough. "Who did we think we were?"

I put on the free summer classes and had more children coming to us, than a local program.

I don't give a damn about what they think anymore, what I care about is the good I've offered and the hard work that has gone into my programs.
What I care about is to have a roof over my head to call "HOME" and to continue with my programs that offer benefits to people!
What I care about is setting appropriate examples to those who need them and to hinder the malice intent of those who have too much time on their hands and too much to hide!
What I care about, is to carry on - with or without their support, my services are required and needed.
What I care about, is seeking backing and support from educated individuals who see the potential and benefits of what I offer.

What I care about are the corporations that have offered much needed donations but I have no place of my own anymore and have to hide out, I can't even put up temp pens to get the animals out of the house because people are afraid of others in the community - finding out they are helping me!

We need an Angel Investor, to assist in stabalizing our residency, I can do the rest~ I have a great plan, one that would be very pleasing to someone who seeks a tax write off - one that has not yet been done and will set examples to other no kill shelters and would be of assistance in helping them gain further financing.

I have an elderly gent to go speak to who firmly believes in Animal Therapy and would be of great help to the cause, I have buildings on donation that I've had to put on hold, organizations ready to "try" our services - but I'm not permitted by the homeowner to have them come out - we need a home!

To have professional financial backing, NONE of this would have happened, they wouldn't of dared step out of line for fear of being caught!
I don't know anybody who could have endured the great financial losses I have, let alone the extent of events that kept us in an upheaval, it doesn't say much for the community, I tell ya!

With professional financial backing, our programs would be in full swing and good things would be happening.
All of this has been unhealthy and malice - not the examples I've been setting at all~ not at all!!!

PLEASE, any suggestions would be greatly appreciated... we need to move forward!