Wolf Within

Getting ready for the big move, means trapping animals before I leave.
Two in particular, escaped the winnebego through the screen and it's been a while I've been trying to get them in the "gillotine" trap!

This morning when I checked the trap, there was a kitty - not the ones I've been trying to get, but one that was abandoned here along with 4 others - his name is "stinky" and his only survival has been coming here for shelter and for food. With me leaving and the one and only other person who puts out food - moving as well, he won't stand much of a chance over the winter, he's a short haired, tiny framed black male, with a large head, due to inter-breeding.
And yes, of course I want to take him too but I can't right now due to the lack of cages!!!!!!!
So, in tears, I let him go! Not that I wanted to, but I HAD to. That is a first for me and one that totally defeats the purpose. I am so upset I had to let him go.....
The 2 cages I have empty at the moment are for the 2 that escaped and I am trying to build new ones at the new house, but those are to accommodate the ones that are in the permanent cages in the winnebego.
I dunno, how others feel, but I do know how it makes me feel and I'm upset.

Someone called me a "whiner" and that upsets me too!
While that person sat comfortably in their home at their computer, I was packing up 2 houses, I lost unjustly over deceptions that need to be brought back to court.
That person who wrote that, did not end up "homeless" with 50 odd animals in care.
They did not have their reputation and complete lifestyle -jeopardized,
- their finances flaundered,
- 0r their sponsors deterred.
- They did not suffer death to their animals (6 in total) due to malice people.
They did not go threw 11 vehicules due to vandalism,
- have an animal pen unscrewed completely to set the animals at large (like who has the time to do something so petty while I was at court?!!)
- their child (if they have any) did not fall in grades at school due to depression and harrassment like my 11 yr old grandson did
- that person did have their business ripped away
- have their website hacked
- have their credit cards spread all over the net for 10 months (that happened over the 10 months I was offline)
- have their bank account closed
- nor did they go broke and be shamed in front of their following and their family!!!!!
and the list goes on........................................................
so if I'm a whiner, then so be it.

Personally, ANYONE who would LET this type of thing happen to their family and NOT do or say anything about it - is a coward in my eyes!

'nd you can tell 'em that the "whiner" said so.....

Well, am off to do the impossible with my one body and two hands - and yes, this is my choice, what really floors me is the "je m'en fou" attitude and uncaring natures that some folks view me with.
There's others who could vouch that animals and kids make for a great combination, but they won't because I have a mouth and stick up for myself....
I wonder.... what they would do, if they lost their home, had their children's life jeopordized, had their animals killed, had their credit cards hijacked and their bank account emptied..... gee, would they write about it on their blog/journal while trying to rectify the situation? Of course they would, it's such an unbelievable thing to experience and for no good reason!

I apologize to anyone who thinks this entry is a "no-no" - it was be nice to show a sense of humor if I had something to be humored about today or any other day! I try - i really do and i push forward to find solutions to this imposed disaster and keep going!
I'm hurt, I'm upset, I'm human and have learned a serious life lesson at 50 - no one cares AND that is so out of my character, so not me, so hard for me to understand - cuz all my life, I've always cared about others and if they were in plight, I'd take my shirt off my back to give it to them, so ya, I cry when I feel this defeated.
I suffer loss like anyone else, I have family problems like everyone else and death comes to my family like everyone else, - aside from what's gone on with the Shelter, so is it me, or is it just society in general?
Cages to build, animals to trap, the daily regular chores to take care of, phone calls to make, animals to feed, boxes that need to be packed, moving that needs to be done....
gotta run!
I really am not plagued - really! And I can' apologize for fighting back!!!! I just can't!
It's petty, it's jeuvenile and it has hurt so bad!
"only in canada eh" ya'd think I lived in an underpriveleged country or something....
I could use a hand!

please humor me, I'm having a bad day!