Wolf Within

I've halted moving stuff into the house and I've just been going to feed the furbabes that are already there. I balled my eyes out on the friggin steps up there last night.
The last thing I need is more disappointment and I so dislike being at the end of a bloody yo-yo string.
I did go a little gun hoe I guess you could say, so very excited with the thought of getting back up on our feet. Maybe a little too gun hoe, too much information for the chap that owns the house and his girlfriend - I went speeding ahead and told them of all my plans, I felt it better that all the cards were on the table so that there'd be no surprises - and there seemed to be a solid agreement in place between the men!

I was total game in spite of the work that needs to be done... I do sorta work magic on houses and I'm certainly not afraid of applying elbow grease. I thought it was to be a benefit to all parties concerned.
An agreement was made between the 2 men and then things changed and changed again.
We meet on Sunday to hopefully come to an agreement and get appropriate papers signed.
I'm worried, no very worried.
I'm short a board member and invited one of the parties to participate so that they'd always know what the shelter and programs are up to and to have a peace of mind that not only was there a good tenant, but one who was trying to make a difference and help people in a discreet and private way.
No worries, just some pride for a change - but we'll see on Sunday.
Wish us well, the crew, my grandson and I, need a place to call "home" and move forward.
What an emotional roller coaster ride I've been on - it's becoming a lifestyle as opposed to "occurances"
I hope that they (the chap and his other half) don't view my business as imposing or disapprove everything was ok and now for some reason, it isn't - too many changes and control on a home that was supposedly wished to be bulldozed...($$$$$$) and probably should be - however, I see that with alot of work, it can be restored to workable - that's my original trade and I'd do it for the cost of help with supplies. When I stopped working 5 yrs ago, I was at approx $30 an hour - my fee.

Hopefully, I'll be able to point out the benefits to all parties concerned and that all my gun hoe didn't overload them with information. I have alot of plans that are needed to make things work and as the house sits, I'd be back up and running by Spring next year.
I really do want to fix it up, it's a challenge well worth undertaking providing, everyone benefits and it's not just ONE sided.
I need that house, but will move what's there, if they change their minds again.
I want to be a good tenant, someone they speak of with pride.
Hope to be back on Sunday with GOOD NEWS!
damn i feel sick.....

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have a good one.....