Wolf Within

I've been looking for a new place, I have posted posters, contacted agencies for loans, grants and been looking into Angel Investors - I have one body and 2 hands and have been pulling a juggling act with no help from anyone in the community - I appreciated coming to this house and am exhausted from hauling 30-40 gallons of water (spring clean up) but I've been hauling water for some time now and I'm pretty pooped. I've been caught in the middle of a family fued here and don't want to add fuel to the fire, I just want a place to call home and carry on with my business and programs - I have enough on myu plat as it is!

but every damn time I start to get back up on my feet, I get screwed. I don't understand and the funny part is, I wrote that entry yesterday and I got s visit this morning, asking that I move asap, - so I explained what I've been up to with seeking funding and got told that it's just a story!!! and here's the catch................

"you can just leave the cats here and we'll release them and give them to farmers for Barn Cats!"

and that's what it's really all about!
Their determination to force me into giving away the cats because they are good for only one thing - barn cats and that's what my whole sorrow and grief in this community has been about.
That's why they found the nitch in my purchase agreements - I was told when we were going to court that if I gave the cats away as barn cats - I could stay and the homeowner (2005) would honor her agreement - she was suppose to honor it anyway! Of course I said no, and committed to placing the animals in the winnebego and camper that I had converted - but no - so we went ot court and because the agreements were not registered at land titles, I lost! Lost my investments, lost my finances and when I moved and went offline, I lost my credit standing from the crap that went on while I was offline. The only person that had my cards - was the homeowner due to all the purchases I'd made in her store - I had never shopped online! So how in the hell did anyone get my card numbers and 3 digits when I only shopped in her store?

I am so screwed at this moment - leave the cats behind and they'll disperse them to farmers - that's what this is really all about!

And to think I was grateful for the use of the house!
I am so sick of the abuse!