Wolf Within

My daughter and I have been seeking out a lender, angel investor or grants and we think we may have found two loan companies in Calgary - and I recently applied for a couple of grants, one I'm sure of and the other, well, I am hopeful - who knows what else will come through, Rome wasn't built in a day and I'm certain there are thousands of applicants before me.
Have you ever applied for a job and one, two months go by and they call you out of the blue (and you've already gotten another job!)?
I have a hunch that this situation is similarly the same.
Things will perk up before the end of the summer, I've worked hard.

As for a land, if there's anyone I prefer as my neighbor or living beside me, it's my grandson and daughter. There will come a day when my time will pass and in this way, my daughter and grandson will inherit that which is mine. And while I'm not up to where I'm use to being, I am so fortunate to have my family in my life almost every day. There's a lot to be said about mothers and daughters and once they get past the point of learning experiences, they become friends and that is the best way to describe my daughter and I - she is my friend and I, hers. She, like me, works hard and she has usually maintained 2 jobs at a time. She has a full time employer for 5 yrs now, she farms - runs heavy equipment and has papers from the doc that clearly states she shouldn't be working, she has a spinal illness but she sets examples to her son that "nothing falls in your lap" and that folks have to work at getting ahead.

I might not be as wealthy as I was at times in my life, but I am a firm believer that folks who get rich quick, tend to eventually lose in the long run and never get back up there and anyone who has climbed the ladder step by step, learns how to get back up in case they slide back down - most millionaires have done just that - I may slide but I get back up and I will make this work.
The one thing I have learned through all this, is who my friends are and who they aren't - (i can't thank those enough who I've met in here, that have come through for me, i feel very fortunate for the kindness, the thoughts and in some cases, the generosity! you know who you are and i thank you so much!)

My scottish Grandmother use to say "you'll know your friends by those who over-estimate your capabilities, their belief will always motivate you to push harder and you'll know your enemies by those who always point out or find something wrong in what you do and lamely wish you well. Know that these people are self acclaimed and seek only to feel better about themselves and their own lives." - she was s-o-o-o-o right!

Like most people, I have a distaste for liars, hypocrits, cheats and thieves and I may be one to beak off about my own life, yet, there isn't anything left for anyone to "disclose" about me. That's the beauty of having an open book.
All my life, I've always had a knack at collecting information or remembering things others have told me so that if ever that person attempts to disrupt my life, then I hit them with things they either forgot themselves, or figured I'd forget... this is one of those times! My turn is coming very soon, my only desire right now is to proceed with "the plan" and get my programs back up and running - I have a hunch that charma only needs a little encouraging and will do the rest all by itself. I'm already seeing results of that statement with folks who brought us harm, as their own lives have taken on ironic twists and I can't say I feel sorry for them one bit. However, I do feel it is a shame because there was no need for what has happened, it all boiled down to "control", anger and hate, so yep, it's a shame.

Where the house (here) is concerned, I will be calling a lawyer some time this week, there hasn't been one thing "legal" about any of the arrangements or documents that these folks have tried to get me involved in or get me to sign and for this reason, I refuse to sign anything...
Then I have to get ahold of the health board to verify a few things, in case a few rules have changed - but I doubt it and get ready for any shit that hits the fan in the next two weeks, I want out, too bad too, because this place holds a ton of possibility that will never progress...
I recently set it up so that I can finish my courses online, so moving can't interfere with my courses, they are an additional means of making future income and no one is worth losing that over! Especially folks who change their minds as much as they change their socks! And ya know, the funny part is, it's made me wonder how people who keep changing their minds, stay in relationships! Oh well, I guess it isn't my business to question those things, but oddly enough, it has crossed my mind.

I'm finished early this evening, my grandson has been here for the long weekend while his mom has been working, he's lent me a hand and helped with Huckster too, I sometimes don't even get to sit over a period of 12-14 hrs - there's that much work to do in a day and even more lately, with researching lenders, writing firms, contacting people for information, filing paperwork and so much else that normally isn't included in the regular routine. Animals are a lot of work on top of all the mind stuff!
And moving, is such a labor of, well labor! The next house, gets a pen built right away!!! before I set up my own things and then the left over crew, can finally get some independance back and come and go as they please. Being constantly indoors, keeps me on my toes for viruses and other that takes place when they can't get outside for fresh air... everyday, any available window just looks like a big ball of fur! as they sit clammed together to look outside and feel a breeze.
Well, since I'm finished early tonight, I should take advantage of it and catch some much needed zzzz's.
my bed is calling my name!