Wolf Within

After a year of being "held back" a few opportunities have finally surfaced with new and difficult hurdles to overcome... I'm a little scared, shaky on my feet and very scattered to say the least with everything "left up to me to do" it's a make it or break it point and I'm a little pooped.
The new house location is a hurdle in itself and as thrilled as I am, reality sets in with ceiling repairs, the complete exterior paint job of a big house, yard cleaning and major grass cutting, a need for a new water tank, preps for winter, building a new cage system, moving all the crew (51 animals) - plus moving period is a pain in the ass, yet alone moving and settling in the animals.

I asked for a heating propane conversion because the home is connected to a major estate that belonged to one family and now the properties are divided. Otherwords, the neighboring farm would be billing me for gas to the house because it's all the same line and I know how that works, there is never any way of knowing just how much gas I've used to heat the house with and I'd have to take someone elses word for the cost and usually that means I'd be paying more than I should and that's not something that's in the budget right now. This whole moving thing is a huge jump for me!
Besides, it avoids future disputes, arguements, "i didn't use that much, it never costs me more than....." and I'd like to be neighborly as opposed to being in dispute or always wondering.

The new location is a huge house - with 2 furnaces! There's a fireplace in the living room and a closed off fireplace in one of the bedrooms (i'd eventually want to get that one opened back up and functional)
the main floor is an open floor plan right into the dining and kitchen areas (great for having in small groups of clients in the animal assisted therapy programs) and heat from the fireplace should really help keep the main floor level warmer in the winter and it'll also add an ambiance to the programs. Nothing like hanging out around a nice warm fire in a comfy settings - right? God I'm scared this is a huge jump from everything that's happened in the past 18 months and ending up at my daughters with the crew in the recreation vehicules... story about our court case here
In spite of my will to bring everything back together, i've been feelin' a little beat up these days and the house is one that I have eye balled for almost 5 years - now I'm moving in and it's a rental - that's another thing that worries me... as a rental, there's no guarantee that I can do this long term at the same location and damn, I can't keep moving, my ol bones just can't keep up to all the physical labor that has come with everything that's gone on over the past 2-3 yrs.... I need to settle down.
I need to convince the homeowner to make me a deal on this house.... I need to know that the furbabies I have or bring in from the Bylaw Officer that people have trapped, are going to be safe and someone can't say - "get the animals out or get out" cuz this new place is actually perfect for what I need.

The new place was added to in the 70's - when the inside garages were popular and the master bedrooms were atop of the garage.
The "garage" is no longer a garage per say, it's a work shop and the garage door has been cut and a framed door with a screen door was added to the middle of the main larger garage door. The rest of the large garage door, has slabs of insulation covered with plastic and no drywall (until i do it) The floor is still cement and one of the furnaces is in there... hopefully, that's where the new propane one will be replaced too cuz that's where the crew of kitties will be going since the flooring is all cemented.
My bedroom will be over that, so I can hear and keep an eye on things at all times. The stairs leading down are right there and it's all in a shag carpet (typical 70's) and the stairs are off the living room and that's where the big fireplace is.
There's 2 bathrooms, one has a whirlpool tub and a large stand up glass encased shower. There's a huge window in there that overlooks a million dollar view - overlooking a lake and you can see for miles since the house is inset into a hillside - in the middle of nowhere.
It's recluse, like really recluse and I can see getting snowed in for a few days in the winter, so I'll have to prep for that, but all in all, there are alot of good points that entail alot of work.
Gotta try and get the homeowner to cut me some kinda deal so that I can have some kind of security, heading towards the future... the loss of my two ol shacks, still lays heavy until I can get back into court for compensation.
Am l@@kin forward to better things ahead, I just hope I can convince others who are needed right now, the importance and benefits of what is being done so that I can find a more stable ground to move forward on......
AS great as all this is, I'm scared half to death of taking the jump, but something has to be done to move ahead and things can't carry on the way they are.