Wolf Within

I was talking to a friend earlier, someone who I know for almost 18 years, we worked under the same roof at a market and conversed frequently.
He said to me "ya know Heather, u've gotta stop being so hard on others but especially - on yourself" I laughed and he said "no woman, seriously, when u are hard on yourself, nothing good can happen, so settle down - you've worked really hard, so don't blow it now. Remember who you are and don't let them change you - "

And those words "don't blow it now" stopped me dead in my tracks. I've been bitchin' and angry and it has reflected on everything I've been doing, defeating my own purpose and that certainly hasn't been my intention, but is what has been occuring.

And I owe thanks to another new friend, who has sent a kind donation our way and a kind family member my way, the actions in the thought alone have helped me take a good look at how my ramblings are not what's needed right now. Time to pull up the ol' socks....
I'm the type of person that likes to "do" things - hindrances, hold ups, road blocks are expected - on occasion - but not a lifestyle, which is what things have seeminly become.
When I first moved here, I had built 3 websites. News4CreativeMinds.Com, Paint-Patterns.Com and another called Behold-Women.Com (yes and I had the animals and the kids to tend to during that time as well)
News4CreativeMinds.Com was to promote the local talent in a shopping mall on the net, using all my personal projects and previous contracts, as site content to get the ball rolling. the dot com got 135,000 hits in the FIRST year - beating Debbie Travis in the Search Engines (of course i printed the results, it was mind blowing and i loved it!)
Paint-Patterns.Com was hooked up to News4CreativeMinds.Com in the paint section with a variety of other painting projects. Paint-Patterns was strictly all my Mural Art Patterns I had for sale and they weren't decal type looking either, like you'd bought a decal and stuck it to the wall, mine taught people tips and tricks to shade, shadow and actually paint, while following a paint by number type pattern. (rags work wonders people) I had the animals and would sometimes sneak them into the pattern instruction booklets becuz the animals and my crafts programs were supported by the mural patterns or other products I had for sale, supported everything I do for that matter. And yes, I proudly promoted the site contained Canadian Content....


(one of the Castle Patterns while in progress) and "Global Map" below... as examples of the patterns...

Everything was going well until I kept spotting a man, sitting in his car in behind my house on a lap top. Then all hell broke loose and my puter crashed and my sites kept crashing.
I went offline for 4 months to hinder further harrassment.
I miss being creative and I began looking through my old files and found some old articles that are still on the net... they are hooked up to news4creativeminds.com and the other sites that don't work anymore, so I am trying to find my old passwords to get into one of the old offlinks.
There's a series called "Staging Your Home for Resale" - one that linked off the dot coms and one that I'd receive questions from realtors in California, Florida, B.C. - Ont and so on and requesting if they could hook up to the section so as to refer clients with helpful hints and step by step projects to fix their homes for resale.
Basic Understanding of Property Values
the articles were written in early 2003.
As of recent, I hooked up with a company that'll pay me for content. Apparently I've been a hard person to find since my other 3 dot coms were let go. I just tried to upload my first article but I used an inappropriate file form (wpd) so back to square one - I'm off pretty quick to find out what kind of docs I can send so I can see if an interest is attracted to my articles so I can make some money!

I'm use to a - busy, full and positive and healthier enviroment.
I'll be working on that part of my life so I can better my non profit career with the animals and people.
"nuff bitchin'
I've been building an online "group" to use as the Society's Catalogue - Shopping Mall.
This is an example of the artwork found on the t-shirts, it's a painting I recently painted and played with in adobe

More pics of t-shirts and other accessories that I've been putting in the catalogue in support of the animals and programs
and one of the cafe press stores called Wolves 2 Alone
I'll get back up there, just need a bit of time and understanding....
handle with care
bye for now.
Thanks to my friends.